Love and Conditions

My dreams are real. I want them to be. But at this point, I feel very far from it than I expected. I have no one to talk to about it. Been planning it on my mind. No one to share the fears, the excitement, and the doubts. No one to plan it with. I’ve

Flipping through the pages too fast

There is not a day that I question the legitimacy of my being. The past days, it’s lingering. When I feel like a fraud, it paralyzes my core. I struggle to say the right words because I don’t know where I stand on things. I need more time to process my thoughts I think because

The Game of Catching Up

Moms, we are in constant push and pull when it comes to appointments and commitments. Playing catch up is a normal theme among us. Today, I write this waiting for the daughter to be done with her therapy. She does this on weekends. That is occupational therapy and speech therapy. The past days I’ve been

New Year and the resolution to participate more in my life

I am writing this the day before 2021 officially starts its working day. I feel a bit agitated here because I have not done what I was supposed to do. My research paper’s long overdue and I couldn’t even get past few chapters on the results. My mind has not been on my side and

Shackles of Yesterday and the Promise of Today

My story always starts with my childhood. I have settled that it is both my gift and my curse. I have narrated over and over the passing of my mother that changed the course of our lives. Today, I began wondering and wandering- would our lives ever be different if she were still in it?

Discussion on Life’s inevitables

Yesterday, we attended the online Sunday Praise and Worship with the theme on MOTIVATE (ACRONYM). The topic was Intimacy (Relationship). After the service, we talked a little about life, forgiveness and surrender. My husband is not a talker and usually avoids difficult conversations on life like ambitions, passion, struggles, and specifically death. Last night, while

Filipinos, We are RESILIENT but We still deserve BETTER

June 21st when my husband’s fever started. Given that we are in a health crisis and an invisible enemy, we isolated him right away praying that it was not yet too late to do so. We have no idea whether we caught the crown (COVID-19) and living in the epicenter of the Philippines’s COVID crisis

Thoughts and Opinions

I just don’t understand sometimes how people (celebrities or the likes) gets angry over reactions from people with their opinions made public on social media. We all have opinions on almost everything in life; if we do not want them criticized, we shouldn’t bother posting it online. #weareabunchofinconsistenopinionatedbeings #itcanbeplainannoying

Forgiveness

Forgive. What does it really mean? How is it really given? When does it truly set us free? I have been hearing forgiveness in almost every scripture, book, and teachings. Does forgiveness really free us from bitterness, from pain and from the shackles of the past? Is it why too many are bitter and unconsciously

Why Figure Skater Michael Christian Martinez Ups My Hope for the World

While most Filipinos in the social media overly expresses their amazement over the recognition figure skater Michael Christian Martinez in the 2014 Winter Olympics garnered, some are plain happy for his success. Saying, “Yeah, of course he is Pinoy”, makes me cringe though. Why can’t we stop saying that? False patriotism is not ever flattering

The Lady and Her Shoe

I am a girl who loves so many things. One of my greatest struggle when choosing wardrobe is that I buy whatever I see that I might like. I had no clear idea of what I wanted and so I ended up buying those shoes, those bags and those dresses that I don’t love. They

A year-end Review: Dealt with Inconsistencies and Faced Inevitability

There is nothing sweeter than to be able to wake up and live life another day. Yet, days of everlasting anguish and fear seems to haunt me on these sweet days. Having to face the angst of unforgiving past and the inevitable death creeps like a nightmare on a sunny day. This year, I lost